It was in the march of the winter I turned seventeen
That I bought those pills
I thought I would need
And I wrote a letter to my family
Said it´s not your fault
And you´ve been good to me
Just lately I´ve been feeling
Like I don´t belong
Like the ground´s not mine to walk upon
And I´ve heard that music
Echo through the house
Where my grandmother drank
By herself
And I sat watching a flower
As it was withering
I was embarrassed by its honesty
So I´d prefer to be remembered as a smiling face
Not this fucking wreck
That´s taken its place

So please forgive what I have done
No you can´t stay mad at the setting sun
Cause we all get tired, I mean eventually
There is nothing left to do but sleep

But spring came bearing sunlight
Those persuasive rays
So I gave myself a few more days
My salvation it came, quite suddenly
When Justin spoke very plainly
He said "Of course it´s your decision,
But just so you know,
If you decide to leave,
Soon I will follow"

I wrote this for a baby
Who has yet to be born
My brother´s first child
I hope that womb´s not too warm
Cause it´s cold out here
And it´ll be quite a shock
To breathe this air
To discover loss
So I´d like to make some changes
Before you arive
So when your new eyes meet mine
They won´t see no lies
Just love.
Just love.

I will be pure
No, no, I know i will be pure
Like snow, like gold