At night in my window I see a silhouette
Crying heavy tears look how wet my pillow gets
Throughout my days I don´t smile I just get upset
And since you left look at all the shit that it affects
I take a picture of your face and I just hold it up
Kiss it, then reminisce on when it was both of us
It´s hard for me to open up, I´m always talking to myself
But to nobody else
Some say that church or maybe counseling could probably help
But they don´t know about all of my idiotic lies
All the fucking times I left you traumatized
Swore up and down to you saying I´m a try
And never did, I try not to cry but I feel bad I didn´t apologize
It´s time I cough it up and tell more, my soul is taken never sell yours
I did some shit I probably coulda been in jail for
Bury me deep inside hells core
And don´t let me out until you hear bells roar

She said, you never loved me
You just controlled me
If you fuck around I´m calling the police
But all I wanted to say was I´m sorry
Oh how I wish that could tell you
You´re gone, you´re dead, you´ll never know that I was sorry
Just leave me alone, stay out my head, I wish that I could tell you
You´re gone, you´re dead, you´ll never know that I was sorry
Just leave me alone, stay out my head, I wish that I could tell you

It´s hard to forget, my heart is a brick
I tell myself Marcus, I thought that you were smarter than this
The mess I put you through was worse than pearl harbor and shit
I´d always harm you and flip, mentally scar you and trip
Sometimes I´d argue and get, the nerve to call you a bitch
Then bruise your back against the dresser that I tossed you against
My Juliet at the time I never thought you was it
I do now but shit your gone, so I just offer you this
A song to you, through it I open the crack in my chest
And show the whole world I´ve always had a lack of respect
For women who went to my life, I look to vengeance as knife
Intentions to fight, if you thinking I was senseless you right
Now every sentence I write, I think twice on it so I don´t regret
Cause only stress lies in a simple mind of loneliness
I´m an unholy mess, put me in a hole to rest
Welcome to my life this is how painful my stories get

She said, you never loved me
You just controlled me
If you fuck around I´m calling the police
But all I wanted to say was I´m sorry
Oh how I wish that could tell you
You´re gone, you´re dead, you´ll never know that I was sorry
Just leave me alone, stay out my head, I wish that I could tell you
You´re gone, you´re dead, you´ll never know that I was sorry
Just leave me alone, stay out my head, I wish that I could tell you

Now use this track as a lesson
All you guys out there who have some aggression
Towards your woman it don´t have to get hectic
That crap is pathetic, now look at me I have to regret it
I can´t go near her or nothing, she´ll probably have me arrested
The only thing I could do is just make a track with a message
And hope she hears it so she could know I was badly infected
I never meant to be that type of guy
But I realized that I was, and because of it I´m throwing my sinister life aside
I can cry at any moment just thinking about it
Sometimes I hide it from the folks that I´m hanging around with
I should apply for a new soul cause I think it´s invalid
Somebody told me when I die I´ll be safe but I doubt it
The grudge she holds against me, it hurts me so severely
She won´t come near me, I thought that time was supposed to cure me
I´m so alone and weary, writing songs to heal me
I swear that I´m sorry Heather, I mean it so sincerely

She said, you never loved me
You just controlled me
If you fuck around I´m calling the police
But all I wanted to say was I´m sorry
Oh how I wish that could tell you
You´re gone, you´re dead, you´ll never know that I was sorry
Just leave me alone, stay out my head, I wish that I could tell you
You´re gone, you´re dead, you´ll never know that I was sorry
Just leave me alone, stay out my head, I wish that I could tell you