i´m scared of swimming in the sea
dark shapes moving under me
every fear i swallow makes me small
inconsequential things occur
alarms are triggered
memories stir

it´s not the way it has to be

i´m afraid of what i do not know
i hate being undermined
i´m afraid i can be devil man
and i´m scared to be divine
don´t mess with me my fuse is short
beneath this skin these fragments caught

when i allow it to be
there´s no control over me
i have my fears
but they do not have me

walking through the undergrowth, to the house in the woods
the deeper I go, the darker it gets
i peer through the window
knock at the door
and the monster i was
so afraid of
lies curled up on the floor
is curled up on the floor just like a baby boy

i cry until i laugh

i´m afraid of being mothered
with my balls shut in the pen
i´m afraid of loving women
and i´m scared of loving men
flashbacks coming in every night
don´t tell me everything´s alright

when I allow it to be
it has no control over me
i own my fear
so it doesn´t own me

walking through the undergrowth, to the house in the woods
the deeper i go, the darker it gets
i peer through the window
knock at the door
and the monster i was
so afraid of
lies curled up on the floor
is curled up on the floor just like a baby boy

i cry until i laugh