I only went and fucking did it
Used to be a dream but now I fucking live it
Weren´t even writing raps I was down and out about to fucking quit it
Lucky for me that I fucking didn´t
See lily came along when I was at my lowest
Selling wraps of coke not the raps I flow with
I made it and I owe to a chat I had with her,
Who knows where I´d be if that chat hadn´t occurred
Back with the bag, with the bag full of herbs init
Instead I got her on a track and I murdered it
My name started causing murmurs in the industry
But none of these labels would work with it until virgin did
Put my first single out and we earned a hit
That´s why we never...
I know it must burn a bit
Just did a show and everybody knew the words to it
The day I risked everything for I couldn´t have given anything more all these years...
But this is something that nothing could have readied me for
What you think all my problems are remedied cos´ I get an applause, there not

Today I cried
And I don´t know why
But today I cried
And I don´t know why x2

My single went in at 3
My album went in at 2
For a debut not to shabby if I have to I make do
Finally some form of reward for the things I came through
But it´s different to the perfect picture people paint you
On the way up you might be a person people take to
Then you break through and the same people who rated you hate too
All of a sudden anything you do may do may make news
And I´m sick to death of explaining was is and aint´ true
Spend a day in my shoes and maybe you would feel the same too
Though I know I´ve got to make the most of it there will be no take 2
And ungrateful I would hate to seem cos´ I´m leaving my dream now
But I don´t sleep now
And all the hours awake are making me senile
Snap
Even people I´ve been round my whole life are looking at me like I´m a new me now
They say I´ve changed but I just don´t see how
I´ve always lived my life taking corners that I can´t see round
Never knowing what it is I´m trying to seek out
But I´m even beginning to question me now

Today I cried
And I don´t know why
But today I cried
And I don´t know why (don´t know why I cried)

I know it must seem mad to you
It´s mad to me
All I´ve done is what I´ve had to do
Been who I´ve had to be
But the path I´ve walked has been so gravely
It´s been a strain to remain humane amongst all this inhumanity
Thankfully I had nan who was a mum and dad to me
You can choose your friends but you can´t choose your family
Temporary happiness for me has been a fallacy
It´s so sad isn´t it, stick your sympathy it means jack to me
Sick of hearing how happy I should be
I just don´t know how to be
I can no longer pretend
No more making out to be
Maybe all I needs a slap,
Someone to shake it out of me
Help me to spell my irrational thoughts think more rationally
Sick of being in the state of vanity
It´s agony
Am I torn or is it all some twisted form of vanity
Can it be I´m really just obsessed with myself, obsessive compulsive depressed, my pressures reflecting my health
Taking care of my career but I´m neglecting myself
Rejected therapy no I just won´t except any help
I pride myself on my honestly but in all honestly today I lied
I was asked how I was and I said I was fine, I´m not

Today I cried
And I don´t know why
But today I cried
And I don´t know why x3